I am sorry about hurting and lying to you today*
And i am sorry for all of the other days i might have done the same.
I am sorry for putting you somewhere that you didn't wanna be.
I am sorry for putting anyone else in front of you.
I am sorry for hurting you and not him.
I was wrong.
I should of said something else, or the truth for that matter.
But its hard when one is forced to hurt someone they love.
In order to keep the one they are falling in love with.
That could leave any day and never come back.
I am sorry, i should of trusted you more with this.
But didn't.
You know that i would never do anything like that.
I am not like that.
And you should of known that i would never do anything to hurt you.
I love you with all my heart.
You are someone i would die with out.
I would take a bullet for you.
You are my best friend and my "sister".
Therefore if i ever did anything like this,
You would be the first person to find out.
Because i trust you with everything.
You are always in my heart'n'soul
I would never do anything like this, for both you and i resent it.
i love you, my best friend.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Mirror-BARlow Girl
Mirror, Mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines me
You don't define me, you don't define me
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To the list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him I have beauty beyond compare
I know He defines me
You don't define me, you don't define me
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
you
i could wait 1 million days, if on the millionth day i got to see you.
but when you have to wait a few days more than you would like.
you get fed up with waiting.
you said i promise i will see you no matter what.
that day has come and gone yet still no phone call.
i really want to see you cause i really miss you.
but that doesnt seem to matter to you.
you dont care if i wait, but as soon as you have to.. u r through.
and i dont want it to be over, cause i miss you and everything about you.
i need your voice so that i can sleep at night,
i need to see you so that way i know your ok
i wish i could be with you every second of everyday, but i cant.
all i know is that in my heart
you're the only thing that makes it so that i can
live and breathe with out dying or feeling horrible.
all i need is you,
not just the you in the weekends, but i want you to be real with me 24/7!
because i really need you
but when you have to wait a few days more than you would like.
you get fed up with waiting.
you said i promise i will see you no matter what.
that day has come and gone yet still no phone call.
i really want to see you cause i really miss you.
but that doesnt seem to matter to you.
you dont care if i wait, but as soon as you have to.. u r through.
and i dont want it to be over, cause i miss you and everything about you.
i need your voice so that i can sleep at night,
i need to see you so that way i know your ok
i wish i could be with you every second of everyday, but i cant.
all i know is that in my heart
you're the only thing that makes it so that i can
live and breathe with out dying or feeling horrible.
all i need is you,
not just the you in the weekends, but i want you to be real with me 24/7!
because i really need you
Monday, August 13, 2007
why excitement and happiness? why?
as my heart pounds from excitement
i don't understand why.
sure i am happy that i am talking to you
but how is talking to you any different from talking to the other guys i have liked
i cant make a decision on why
is it because i missed you?
is it because you have been gone and i have been waiting?
or is it because i really like you more than anyone else i have ever liked?
either way it comes to me being excited.
all i know is that when i talk to you
everything else seems to disappear,
nothing in the world matters,
its just you and me talking as if we have known each-other for years,
we joke, laugh, tell each-other the complications in our life, and we talk about us.
when we talk about us, it is hard to focus cause i am so happy and different things rush through my mind with every word you put in my head, but i am still happy and excited.
why?
i don't know the answer to yet, all i can say is that there is a reason, and it needs to be discovered, for why i am like this... but only with you
i don't understand why.
sure i am happy that i am talking to you
but how is talking to you any different from talking to the other guys i have liked
i cant make a decision on why
is it because i missed you?
is it because you have been gone and i have been waiting?
or is it because i really like you more than anyone else i have ever liked?
either way it comes to me being excited.
all i know is that when i talk to you
everything else seems to disappear,
nothing in the world matters,
its just you and me talking as if we have known each-other for years,
we joke, laugh, tell each-other the complications in our life, and we talk about us.
when we talk about us, it is hard to focus cause i am so happy and different things rush through my mind with every word you put in my head, but i am still happy and excited.
why?
i don't know the answer to yet, all i can say is that there is a reason, and it needs to be discovered, for why i am like this... but only with you
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
someone
has someone told u that they r there for u, then bailed
has someone told u that they would always be there when u come back
has someone told u that they loved u and always would, but then when u r redy, they r gone?
has anyone turned their back on u when u needed them most
has someone promised to b by ur side through the good and bad times, but when the bad turns to worst they r gone?
promise not to b that someone, promise to b that
someone who will hold on to the hand of the one they love and never let go
someone who will hold u so close, no one can hurt u
someone who will promise that he wont ever treat u like u've been treated in the past
everyone is looking for the special someone, and when u find them makesure u keep them, cause people like that dont come around very often...
if u've got something good, dont destroy it, cherish it
has someone told u that they would always be there when u come back
has someone told u that they loved u and always would, but then when u r redy, they r gone?
has anyone turned their back on u when u needed them most
has someone promised to b by ur side through the good and bad times, but when the bad turns to worst they r gone?
promise not to b that someone, promise to b that
someone who will hold on to the hand of the one they love and never let go
someone who will hold u so close, no one can hurt u
someone who will promise that he wont ever treat u like u've been treated in the past
everyone is looking for the special someone, and when u find them makesure u keep them, cause people like that dont come around very often...
if u've got something good, dont destroy it, cherish it
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
do you see
i am happy
i know why but do you
i have butterflies in my stomach
all i can do is dream
its beautiful, just you and me
i am, but do you see, how you have changed my personality?
i cant stop smiling
i am always happy
and everyone knows it, but do you...
i need to get to know you better, but i have fun talking to you, i am always relaxed
i get to be myself...
but do you see?
i know why but do you
i have butterflies in my stomach
all i can do is dream
its beautiful, just you and me
i am, but do you see, how you have changed my personality?
i cant stop smiling
i am always happy
and everyone knows it, but do you...
i need to get to know you better, but i have fun talking to you, i am always relaxed
i get to be myself...
but do you see?
Friday, July 20, 2007
not for him!
I mat not be near you alot, but who ever i am with all i can think about is you.
with everything i do, your always in my head.
when i look at guys, i see your face.
i cant stop looking at my phone, because i am waiting for your call or text.
but why is it you that is always in my head, i cant seem to get away from it, but at the same time...
i love it
with everything i do, your always in my head.
when i look at guys, i see your face.
i cant stop looking at my phone, because i am waiting for your call or text.
but why is it you that is always in my head, i cant seem to get away from it, but at the same time...
i love it
what i have done
as i cried myself to sleep.
i couldn't stop thinking of what we could of been.
you are the one who missed out, not me!
even though these tears run down my face, it wouldn't stop me from staying in the same place.
i have tried to forget, yet it is unsuccessful.
i have tried to lose everything that includes you.
but it is impossible.
and now all i can think of is what i missed in life because of you
i couldn't stop thinking of what we could of been.
you are the one who missed out, not me!
even though these tears run down my face, it wouldn't stop me from staying in the same place.
i have tried to forget, yet it is unsuccessful.
i have tried to lose everything that includes you.
but it is impossible.
and now all i can think of is what i missed in life because of you
times
at one moment you could be happier than ever, but within a blink of an eye its gone.
i was happy, everything was going good, i wanted to be slower than i was; because in my past going too fast destroyed everything.
little did i know that i would get hurt.
little did i know that i would cry.
i never though i could be so happy as i did before, but i was and i was great-full that it happened.
now that it had happened i could finally say that i am happy that i have been given such a great day.
now it is over, its time to move on.
there are greater things in life, for me to hold on to.
my time has come and passed, i hoped that that feeling could only last.
it is time so say good-bye to something that would of been a blast.
i was happy, everything was going good, i wanted to be slower than i was; because in my past going too fast destroyed everything.
little did i know that i would get hurt.
little did i know that i would cry.
i never though i could be so happy as i did before, but i was and i was great-full that it happened.
now that it had happened i could finally say that i am happy that i have been given such a great day.
now it is over, its time to move on.
there are greater things in life, for me to hold on to.
my time has come and passed, i hoped that that feeling could only last.
it is time so say good-bye to something that would of been a blast.
Dont Chya
don't you ever just wanna
go away and never come back
go to sleep and never wake up
run away and never stop
leave everything you kno and move on
curl up in a dark corner where you hope no one will find you
but you still look for that
serene place where every problem in the world just goes away
that one place you feel safe
the place you feel like your self instead of the fake person you pretend to be
the one place you feel whole
the one place you feel warm
the one place you would be happy to spend the rest of your life there
with the one person you truly love
it would be perfect, even serene
the truly perfect place to be with the one you love
go away and never come back
go to sleep and never wake up
run away and never stop
leave everything you kno and move on
curl up in a dark corner where you hope no one will find you
but you still look for that
serene place where every problem in the world just goes away
that one place you feel safe
the place you feel like your self instead of the fake person you pretend to be
the one place you feel whole
the one place you feel warm
the one place you would be happy to spend the rest of your life there
with the one person you truly love
it would be perfect, even serene
the truly perfect place to be with the one you love
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